Where Do I Pay Attention On People?

Guy
Hair
Dressing
Face
Lips
Nose
Eyes
Shoulder Width
Height
Complexion
Facial Hair?
Clothes/Pants
Cuff links
Neck ties
His Watch
His Smile
His Fingers
His Nails (Major Turn-off when they keep only the Pinky Nail)
Manners (Gentlemanly?)
The way he talks

Woman
Hair
Face
Complexion
Chest
Hip
Thighs
Dressing
Manner
The way she talks
Is she real or fake?


OKay... Maybe that's all, for initial get-to-know period.

My Thoughts on Child, Family and Marriage

I started thinking about this issue for quite some time. I so wanna get married now. I used to want to have lots of kids, I'm talking like 5 boys and 3 girls... I hope my first child to be a BOY, then GIRL, BOY, BOY, GIRL, BOY, GIRL, and lastly BOY. Not like i could choose. hahahahah

Then i thought if there are lesser people around, wouldn't you be able to spend more time with them? I already need time for my husband and if i do not have enough time to spend with him and there are going to be kids around, what's gonna happen to our loving time?

After my mum told me that my dad used to say "no" to children because he was afraid about the upbringing part, this strucks me and i got worried. But once they started having the first, next popped me and my brother. Then, he left everyone midway.

About the child upbringing wise, i hope to do it with my husband and myself, instead of leaving my kids to childcare or throw them to the care of mine or his parents.

Manners are very important to me. I will be teaching my child to be humble and to put others first while themselves last. To be generous with food and money, not to be selfish or too greedy, be kind and hardworking. I myself do not posses all these traits but at least i am trying to be a better person step by step. You have to come across situations before you get a chance to teach or learn. AND THERE ARE SO MUCH TO LEARN... Well for all these I'm open to discussion cos i know that for example, sometimes putting yourselves last might means disadvantage (eg. food. lollll... kidding). But all these are not certain. You have to understand and do it like you mean it. I can't be a perfect person or nor am i a person with the utmost manners and personalities. Sometimes i forget and only thought about it after things already happened. I might be shallow and there are lots of things that i do not know. But I'd like my child to be better than me.

Oh My head... the more i type the further i go and the more confused i get. I can't make up my mind now. I'm not even sure if i want any child anymore. What about none of them and just get a dog companion? I think i will need to check with my husband for his opinions too...

I wanna love my husband and supports him in every way. You know, like my heart beats for him... haha so embarrassing. We are to be like dating even after marriage. I'll cook for him, he'll makes me laugh. We shall always be learning new things from each other... and making plans together...

One thing I do not know about others but i hate when my mum cooks with her sweat and blood but she didn't get to eat much herself. Is this part of being a mother? I'm like that when it comes to my dog, i make sure he eats before me, i get worried if he's home alone, i would cry when he's sick.

It's tough... But the Love of a Mother... I think when it comes, there's no way to run. I wanna be one.

People

... born selfish, stays selfish.
... born greedy, stays greedy.
... lies when young, stays a liar for life.
... steals when young, bring that habit of yours to the end of life.